Reflections on Finding Peace in Solitude
For years, I was terrified of being alone with my thoughts. My anxiety was so intense that I felt incapable of being by myself or being away from home without a constant sense of unease. To cope, I filled my days with social events, surrounded myself with people, and launched into new projects, all to avoid the fear of solitude. The thought of being alone was overwhelming, so I kept myself perpetually busy.
It took me a long time to realize that I was perfectly fine on my own. In fact, I discovered that I actually enjoyed my own company. As I spent more time doing the things I love, I began to understand that my reliance on others was rooted in fear—fear that was entirely unfounded. My anxiety began to diminish as I started asking myself a simple question: *Do I really want to go out, meet people, and stay busy, or am I okay just being at home alone?* More often than not, I found that I was content staying in, embracing the quiet and stillness of my own space.
I had placed so much pressure on myself to maintain a busy social life because I believed that if I wasn’t constantly active, my life would be dull and meaningless. But looking back, I realize how wrong I was. My life is beautiful, regardless of how busy or successful I am. The turning point came when I challenged the belief that I wouldn’t be okay if I wasn’t always doing something. I learned that living my life isn’t about how much I accomplish or how busy I am; it’s about simply being. Ironically, it’s in those moments of stillness, when I allow myself to pause and just be, that I feel the most alive.
So, give yourself permission to take a break. Create space and time for yourself to reconnect with who you are, to do the things that bring you joy, and to simply notice and learn from your own inner world. In that space, you might just find the peace you’ve been seeking all along.